job hunting take untwenteenth…

ok so i’m in the process of applying to teach for america and well, i have a few days to go. but seriously, that program gives me the heeby jeebeees in nervousness and i don’t know why! well, because I want it. But then again if i get it i’m scared of it. i guess it’s my unicorn right this moment and for the past months or so worth of moments. we’ll see. the sad thing is, i realized today: i REALLY like my congregation here yeah it makes me sad because, this is the thing that has endeared me to stay here in san antonio and i’m kinda scared of what kind of a congregation i’ll land in if i do the teach for america thing. regardless of the congregation, my mtg attendance won’t be comprimised. but my attitude will be. and what makes it suck more yet is that i’ll be alone…again. for 2 yrs. no go backs. i guess i shouldn’t get nervous yet. I haven’t gotten it. i have some time before i hear i get rejected hee hee.

puerto rican food

my brother in law is puerto rican. and right now he’s in qatar. i’m not entirely sure as to what he’s doing, i just know that he’s with the air force and will be returning in about 2 wks or so. Now that I’m living w/ my sister and him and my awesome niece i thought…i should do something nice for him. My sister told me that he likes pasteles which are basically a puerto rican tamales.
I’ve witnessed the making of mexican tamales and they’re labor intensive and intimidating…i’ve haven’t even tasted a pastel. i have the feeling that I’m going to chicken out. I’ve been doing some research but it’s just daunting from where i’m standing. ayyyy!!!!! someone help.

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WHY must I voluteer to do the impossible. oh whatev, this is america, everything is possible in america! right?! i repeat: AYYYY!!!!
i need a food network chef to come rescue me. well in 2 wks.

in other news, i want to teach. little kids. and i want to be a cool teacher- a ROCKSTAR at that. i’m talking, jack black in school of rock. yeah, if i have a classroom, i’m totally gonna get in trouble by making my class enter a battle of the bands deal-io like in the movie. yeah, just like in the movie. and then we’ll end the day by rescueing 101 dalmation pups from an evil and coniving woman named Cruella DeVille. muahahaha. right.