job hunting take untwenteenth…

ok so i’m in the process of applying to teach for america and well, i have a few days to go. but seriously, that program gives me the heeby jeebeees in nervousness and i don’t know why! well, because I want it. But then again if i get it i’m scared of it. i guess it’s my unicorn right this moment and for the past months or so worth of moments. we’ll see. the sad thing is, i realized today: i REALLY like my congregation here yeah it makes me sad because, this is the thing that has endeared me to stay here in san antonio and i’m kinda scared of what kind of a congregation i’ll land in if i do the teach for america thing. regardless of the congregation, my mtg attendance won’t be comprimised. but my attitude will be. and what makes it suck more yet is that i’ll be alone…again. for 2 yrs. no go backs. i guess i shouldn’t get nervous yet. I haven’t gotten it. i have some time before i hear i get rejected hee hee.